isn't it sad when what you want is contradict to what you need? when it comes down to assurance vs. passion & the decision you make affect your whole life.
you see, I've been applying for engineering for scholars & universities. But truth is, what I'm really into is photography & architecture. Maybe I'm just not strong enough to go for what I really want. Maybe I'm becoming the person I said I would never be, the person who just goes for the assurance & security. Maybe I'm too scared to try. Isn't that just sad?
then again, how do you survive the photography world? the architecture world? I'm currently hating myself for making all these excuses.
anyway, I made a plan. I'm going for chemical engineering, pursue a career as Asset Integrity Management engineering and with my stable finance, I shall open my studio someday.
All I hope is that I will always remember my dreams, who I'm and who I want to be.
*deep breath*
*exhale*
dear future shidah, please remember that someday you want to travel the world, take beautiful shots along the journey & how you wanna give to charity. and please please please remember that family is the highest priority. Insya-Allah. I will get through this.
from my favourite author: John Green, Looking For Alaska.
I shall escape from the labyrinth one day//
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