le sigh

I'm utterly tired.

physically, emotionally and mentally tired.  it's the kind of tired you can't fix with a sleep.
exam will be over in a week. need to endure all these craps for another few days. I think I pressured myself too much, aha, my parents said so. I bet they're right, maybe I need to chill.

my dad told me,

"you need to learn how to forgive yourself."

if only that's easy. I'm a mess but I used to be a bigger mess. optimism knocking like yeaaaah!
I miss photography outing. I miss outdoors. sigh.